here today

things I tell myself

2008-03-11T06:09:37+00:00

There are things I tell myself in order to keep going, keep showing up. Keep showing up for my clients, my day job, my dog, for Ben, my friends, my house, my life. These things I tell myself are just close enough to the truth that insistent warrior. Close enough to the...

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i sing.

2007-12-29T17:09:30+00:00

couple of months ago stephan aizenstadt came to town. the workshop was on dreamtending and all the Jungians were there in their shawls and such. he told a story of a village where the women when they are ready to become mothers they find a tree and sit under it and...

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stage fright

2007-12-29T16:52:14+00:00

You sit next to me while we look at her hands around my throat, tight. I open and close my baby bird mouth Wanting to be fed but with what I don’t know Behind me or maybe slightly to the left the tick tock of a minute hand tells me the weight of this might be...

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all the world's a stage

2007-10-02T09:21:58+00:00

my uncle met me at the new Vegan place on Vancouver just a few blocks from my house. I admit I chose it in part because of the hot young chef doing dirty funky stuff with vegetables and by that I mean the food was fantastic not just soy masquerading as meat products but...

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scorpio moon

2007-10-02T09:20:42+00:00

vanessa sucked in her breath at this point in the reading. that scorpio moon, she said. the moon rules the Mother Archetype. You will experience your mother this way, or carry that energy for her. other women you attract might also have this energy. this is powerful....

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bamboo & mermaid caves

2007-09-19T03:43:38+00:00

my friend's father, or rather my sort of friend's father - oh, never mind - some guy once lectured some girl by telling her she should not be like bamboo, bending in the prevailing wind. that she should stand up straight & tall and sure & steady. but bamboo is a powerful...

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sing for me, please.

2007-09-17T11:25:41+00:00

I never write dear blog unless there is something terrible. I never write when life is sunny. When Ben & I have finished painting our house all on our own, ben on a twenty five foot ladder with two rods duct-taped together, a paintbrush stuck on the end. Me, hanging...

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there I was

2007-07-31T03:31:34+00:00

there I was in the room with them my first clients, one and then the other. I wanted to share with each what this moment was for me, moment by moment I wanted to capture and hang on forever because finally there I was in the room with them. there I was and I never wanted it...

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i kiss your hands

2007-07-27T03:52:22+00:00

my fellow classmates. we have been through fire and tears together. birth and death and rebirth. we have been witness and warrior, held each other so tenderly that we were unaware of the holding and yet felt so safe we could walk on into the darkness knowing we are not...

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saved by a woman

2007-05-22T10:22:06+00:00

We went to brunch, my mom and I, normally a meal that arouses suspicion why can't they just call it breakfast or lunch. Normally she would ask me that then worry about which fork to use while ordering the cheapest thing on the menu. Sunday I choose the restaurant with a...

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