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things I tell myself

120pages — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 06:09:37 +0000

There are things I tell myself in order to keep going, keep showing up. Keep showing up for my clients, my day job, my dog, for Ben, my friends, my house, my life. These things I tell myself are just close enough to the truth that insistent warrior. Close enough to the...

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i sing.

120pages — Sat, 29 Dec 2007 17:09:30 +0000

couple of months ago stephan aizenstadt came to town.
the workshop was on dreamtending and all the Jungians were there in their shawls and such.
he told a story of a village where the women when they are ready to become mothers they find a tree and sit under it and...

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stage fright

120pages — Sat, 29 Dec 2007 16:52:14 +0000

You sit next to me while we look at her
hands around my throat, tight.
I open and close my baby bird mouth
Wanting to be fed but with what I don’t know

Behind me or maybe slightly to the left the tick tock of a minute hand
tells me the weight of this might be...

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all the world's a stage

120pages — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 09:21:58 +0000

my uncle met me at the new Vegan place on Vancouver just a few blocks from my house. I admit I chose it in part because of the hot young chef doing dirty funky stuff with vegetables and by that I mean the food was fantastic not just soy masquerading as meat products but...

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scorpio moon

120pages — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 09:20:42 +0000

vanessa sucked in her breath at this point in the reading. that scorpio moon, she said.

the moon rules the Mother Archetype. You will experience your mother this way, or carry that energy for her. other women you attract might also have this energy. this is powerful....

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bamboo & mermaid caves

120pages — Wed, 19 Sep 2007 03:43:38 +0000

my friend's father, or rather my sort of friend's father - oh, never mind - some guy once lectured some girl by telling her she should not be like bamboo, bending in the prevailing wind. that she should stand up straight & tall and sure & steady. but bamboo is a powerful...

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sing for me, please.

120pages — Mon, 17 Sep 2007 11:25:41 +0000

I never write dear blog unless there is something terrible.

I never write when life is sunny. When Ben & I have finished painting our house all on our own, ben on a twenty five foot ladder with two rods duct-taped together, a paintbrush stuck on the end. Me, hanging...

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there I was

120pages — Tue, 31 Jul 2007 03:31:34 +0000

there I was in the room with them my first clients, one and then the other. I wanted to share with each what this moment was for me, moment by moment I wanted to capture and hang on forever because finally there I was in the room with them. there I was and I never wanted it...

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i kiss your hands

120pages — Fri, 27 Jul 2007 03:52:22 +0000

my fellow classmates. we have been through fire and tears together. birth and death and rebirth. we have been witness and warrior, held each other so tenderly that we were unaware of the holding and yet felt so safe we could walk on into the darkness knowing we are not...

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saved by a woman

120pages — Tue, 22 May 2007 10:22:06 +0000

We went to brunch, my mom and I, normally a meal that arouses suspicion why can't they just call it breakfast or lunch. Normally she would ask me that then worry about which fork to use while ordering the cheapest thing on the menu. Sunday I choose the restaurant with a...

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