assimilate - innovate

my final post here

bluematrix — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 20:45:06 +0000

since splinder took over from motime, all of the best bloggers have left. i was lazy and hung on for awhile, but then they forced us to change address the URL to our blogs and i lost readers. then screwed with the code and none of my readers could access my ...

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ego

bluematrix — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 19:34:52 +0000

reading some cool stuff in eckhart tolle's book - a new earth - where he talks about complaining. i try to do as little of it as possible, but hell, we all complain, some more than others. he makes a compelling case in tracing complaining back to the ego. our ego is ...

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happy molecules

bluematrix — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 06:33:00 +0000

as my posts drop off, so does my readership. not too surprising of a correlation there. oh well. been reading a good book - the molecules of emotion by one of the scientists in the very cool movie 'what the bleep do we know?". so far its mostly about her ...

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kali

bluematrix — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 19:12:35 +0000

when someone squeezes you, what comes out? i don't mean physically, like your bones and organs, but your mental state of mind. wayne dyer has this really interesting metaphor of visualizing squeezing an orange to illustrate that we can only give off what we have inside. ...

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gratitude

bluematrix — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 20:06:58 +0000

do you take things for granted? when you do, you can quickly forget that it's even there. in fact if you take something for granted long enough, it may not be there the next time you look for it. friendship comes to mind. if you take someone's friendship for granted long ...

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goals

bluematrix — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 05:53:51 +0000

so, i'm thinking that goals are closely tied to hope. ours is a race of problem solvers. we define specific problems (goals) for ourselves and then we go about solving them. for our early ancestors our goals were straightforward but difficult...get enough to eat and not ...

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hope 2

bluematrix — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 13:23:45 +0000

hope. i've written about it before, but i keep coming back to it. when things are going good, we tend not to think about it as much, maybe a brief thought hoping good times continue. but for those more challenging times, without hope, it's damn hard to get out of bed in ...

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48 hour filmfest 2009

bluematrix — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 06:13:00 +0000

so last weekend i made another short film. this is my fourth straight year to lead a team in the 48 hour film fest here. the festival is up to 80 cities now and st. louis had the most entries again this year with 74 teams competing. i almost did not do it this year for ...

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bike and boat

bluematrix — Mon, 25 May 2009 14:55:09 +0000

so. funny, i always want to begin every post with 'so'. i'm not sure why. hell i'm usually not even sure why i post entries here either. probably some deep seated need for acceptance, kinda like mom putting my drawings up on the fridge door when i was growing up (which ...

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past vs now

bluematrix — Sun, 10 May 2009 21:05:00 +0000

it is hard to live in the ‘now’. my mind constantly wanders to the back to things in the past like my tongue repeatedly going over a place where a wisdom tooth was. but living in the past is a dull and lonely business. looking back all the time strains the ...

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